Sometimes I really wonder...

Is it wrong to want to handle your own problems?
Is is a mistake to manage your stress in the best way you know of so as to not worry others?
Is it wrong to remind yourself that there are many who are worse off so as to give yourself some comfort and relief from the constant heavy load you carry?
Why is it so difficult to make people understand that you are already doing your very best?
When you feel down will you not prefer doing something that will lighten your mood rather than to beat yourself up over what has caused it?
Why is it so difficult to get some space and privacy over your own problems and thoughts?
Must some people always try your nerves to the point that you are nearly breaking down?
Sometimes, is it not harder to share your worries than to keep it inside (especially when you know others won't understand and that they'll just make it worse)?
Can some people stop acting as though they understand when they actually do not?
Why can't they understand that sometimes pressure is inevitable and that some people are more susceptible to it than others?
Why can't I continue managing my own problems like I always have done (with some success) till now?
If you have been managing till now, isn't it terrible to hear that you are doing it all wrong?
Can't they understand that even if I'm not doing extremely terribly, the stress is still there? That I'm never going to truly escape from it unless I stop doing certain things (which I definitely cannot stop doing)?
Must I constantly be reminded that I am inadequate at certain areas?
Doesn't everyone have their weakness and strength?
And even if you know your weaknesses, doesn't it still hurt when others berate you over it?
How can they not understand that I am the one who is most affected by my own less than satisfactory results?
Why is it so hard for them to notice my efforts to improve?
It is better to completely break down than to try to keep a hold on yourself when you get 'bad news'?
How can they not notice how their lack of recognition of my strength and constantly high expectations of me have brought me stress?
Do I really seem to lead so carefree a life?
Am I so good at hiding my worries that they think I do not care at all?
In that case should I be proud of my acting skills or sad that no one can understand me?
Can they not understand that there are matters I don't wish to talk about, so they shouldn't press me?

Please, please, please try to understand!!! I am not made of steel!!! I am but human. One with flaws, one who can make mistakes, one who can get hurt and one who tries her best whenever she can. So do be more gentle with me? It will really make it a lot easier. Thank you.




And sometimes, I really envy those who have no worries in their lives what so ever...